At 18, I got drafted into the military. My parents got a doctor to write a note saying my back was too fucked up to serve, but I still had to report to the induction center on my prescribed day with the note and pray it worked. So I was seriously scared anyway. The night before my appointment, I went to see Mike Nichols' film 'Catch 22.' There's a recurring, gradually evolving scene in the movie where there's been a plane crash and the main character Yossarian (Alan Arkin) is tending to a young soldier who's been seriously wounded in the crash. Toward the end of the film, the young wounded soldier says something like, 'It's too hot,' so Yossarian tries to take off his shirt. When he does, the cloth has been fused to the soldier's skin or something because removing it rips open the soldier's stomach and, as the camera zooms in, all of his intestines pour out and fill the screen. It's a scene designed to fuck you up, and it did.